Two, vulnerability is a myth. The Course says, "In my defenselessness my safety lies." (OrEd.WkBk.153) So if there's nothing to defend ourselves against how can we possibly be vulnerable? We are just simply sharing freely the beautiful, individualized curriculum we are all experiencing. I'm so grateful we have a community that gets that. We can just talk about what's going on freely and know that's what we're supposed to do. Right? We can love ourselves and we are free to love everyone who stands in front of us. Thank God. Thank you, Rev. Roxie, for teaching me that.
Three, don't let your job get in the way of your job. (laughter) She came out of "the closet" as saying it appears I'm teaching science to seventh-graders when in fact I'm teaching them how to love themselves. What a valuable, valuable thing that is! It really made me understand very clearly that as a Teacher of God it doesn't matter what we appear to do professionally. It's a way of being, a way to stand in the world. It is a commitment to practice, to the best of our ability, to remember our innocence so that we can extend that to our brothers and sisters, so we can truly see the face of Christ in whoever stands in front of us.
One of the things I thought about is that we sometimes trade our false perception of who we think we are and later we begin to accept that we are love. A Course In Miracles says throughout the book that we are love. There is no other description — just the word "love." Mistaken self identity is always in the form of fear or terror. Our true nature is unchangeable. Sometimes, something turns up and we go to some fearful moment in our past, emotionally, and then all of a sudden we relive it. We say "yes" to it. But, if we say "No I'll change my thought about this," change my mind — we are practicing the principles of A Course In Miracles. If I had to say one thing about what the Course has taught me, it is that I always have the freedom to change my mind. I don't even know if I want to claim it as "my mind." I think it's the "collective mind" out there. We're all in this together. The more of us who are willing to change our mind about the world we see, the more it will effect change in the world we see.
Guilt is always totally insane — always — never sometimes. A Course In Miracles tells us, "I can elect to change all thoughts that hurt." (OrEd.WkBk.284) Not just this thought, but all thoughts that hurt. The Course also tells us that love and guilt cannot coexist. Guilt is definitely disruptive. The end of guilt will come only when we release from blame: when we release ourselves from blame, when we release our partners from blame, when we release each other from blame, or even a stranger on the street who dresses a certain way or their hair looks a certain way. We can send them blessings too.
A Course In Miracles says, “I trust my brothers, who are one with me.” (OrEd.WkBk.181) I think that's part of what I have truly learned as I went through this “fuel-less” time in my own life. My lamp stayed lit. It stayed lit with the help of all my brothers and sisters, which is probably how the lamp in the Jewish Temple stayed lit too. Think about it. It wasn't that they didn't have any oil to burn in a lamp, there was lamp oil all over the land. People probably just added a little (laughter) when nobody was looking. (laughter) So what it wasn't the consecrated, holy oil. Who cares? You know, the lamp stayed lit! That was the important thing. Trusting our brothers and sisters who are one with us is part of all of our healing. It's part of what keeps our own light going and our own lamp lit. The Temple light stayed lit for eight days, and I had eight weeks of a pretty dark time. But my lamp stayed lit for eight weeks because of all the help from my brothers and sisters and all the help from the Holy Spirit who was inspiring my brothers and sisters to help me.
A Course In Miracles says “The teachers of God have trust in the world because they have learned it is not governed by the laws the world made up. It is governed by a Power Which is in them but not of them. It is this Power that keeps all things safe.” (OrEd.Mn.4.3) I think 90% of A Course In Miracles students and most of the teachers have missed this. The teachers of God have trust in the world, trust in the world. Most teachers and students are all about getting away from the world. They think the world it just a manifestation of the ego. The world is crazy. I don't really want anything to do with the world. But we have to learn to have trust in the world, because the world really is just us. It's just us.
The ego is the better than, worse than roller coaster. Am I better than someone or worse than someone? What I've come to realize, and what Jeshua is asking me to do, is to join him. I need to thank him for being my teacher, to honor that he's been a great teacher, and he has. However, now it's time for me to join him as his colleague, because he's not going to wake me up. He can't. I have to wake myself up. I have to have my own awakening, and I can't get it out there. I've finally figured that out. There's no external salvation. It's me and a lot of dialogue with him. It's inner dialogue with this Self from whom I've been hiding, that I've been running from, that I've been doubting. I've been thinking I am not God's Son, but I've been mistaken. I've been afraid of what I am. I've been afraid of what my ego made of me. The Art of Thought (This is a chapter in *A Course of Love*, Book 2) has given me a new way to deal with that.
What's going on is Love is being extended by Creation. That's all that's happening here. Love is being extended by Creation. And that's all Love. It calls for a response. But, because we're cut off from our heart fear reacts to that. What does the ego do with that? I had to write this down. (Rev. Roxie looks at her notes.) It struggles. It requires effort. It tries to control. It tries to protect. Sometimes it just shuts down and runs from Love or hides from it. The ego does all kinds of crazy, mixed up, wacked out, insane stuff. To this, Love is saying, "Here's Love. Here's Creation loving you."